He lost his father less than three weeks ago. I can't blame him for being distracted and disconnected and wanting something more for himself, for his life. But it feels he just stays away and goes to be away from me. I'm not enough to keep him around. I need to work on myself, study my religion, soul search and fix myself up real good. I need a lot of work. I think I can do it!
I'm going to use this time I have without him for my space, time, energy and ability to do what I need to take care of myself. Two days, two nights....
I will focus myself on me. I'm broken and I can't fully function in this manner. It won't matter. I can't fix or help anyone else. I won't be able to love him fully since I don't truly love myself.
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